Eleven years have passed since my near death experience. There have been so many ups and downs, so many mountain moments and deserts. There have been many times when God stood right in front of me and I could see Him so clearly and other times when He was so far away that I felt like a hollow bone and my longing for Him was so deep. I would search and search but could not find Him no matter where I looked. But again, I said “yes” and I kept searching. During this period of searching for God, He was constantly reminding me of His love. He also reminded me of the conversation we had had while I was in Heaven so many years ago. Part of the conversation was as follows, “God, You made these people, You are in these people, so when I see these people, I see You.” God smiled and said “ yes that’s right. ” God was teaching me that He was not only in me but He was also in others. Because I had said “yes,” God was teaching me to seek Him in the face and hearts of others and by doing acts of love for others, I am also serving God.

It is easy to say “yes” when you are on the mountain top. It is during these times I can feel God’s presence and His love and it leaves me with a feeling of bliss and spiritual delight.

But, it is during the desert times, my dark nights of the soul, that I am aware that God has stripped away everything, even my being in Heaven with Him. When I returned to my body after my near death experience, it felt as though God had carried me for quite a while, but after several months, even that, He had taken away. I was completely humbled and laying flat on my face. And yet, even though I had absolutely nothing left and I felt so alone, I still said “yes.” I loved God and even though I still searched and searched for Him, I believed with all my heart, He was still with me. He was there even though; I couldn’t feel Him at all. There were no more words of love, no spiritual gifts, and no more mountain top moments, to carry me through. But I loved Him anyway. I knew in my heart, God would never leave. I clung to the memories and they helped me get through those times. The memories were of how good God had been in my life and in other’s lives. And then I went about my life living my “yes” and trusting God.

Now, it is through others that I will find Him and in truth, God has never left me. I know this and hold on to this. One day another mountain top will come and more dark moments too. They say, it is in the valley that we grow. So, I will continue to walk my path in love with Him, living my “yes” and praising Him.

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind,A Near Death Experience

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Forgiveness

After my Near Death Experience, I learned that with God everything is Grace. Our very existence is by His Grace. He is constantly pouring out His love and grace upon us.

There is a saying” There but for the grace of God go any one of us”.

Truly, it is by His grace that we are where we are in life. As I have said before, when I had my life review, I never felt as though I was being judged. God does not judge us, we judge ourselves standing before Him. But, as I watched my life passing before me, I saw everything I ever said or did and there was no sense of remorse of guilt. All I felt was complete love and total acceptance.

There was no sense of being held bound by any past events nor were there any feelings of anger or resentment or any unresolved issues tying me down and keeping me trapped in time. All had been forgiven. I had let go of everything. I learned that forgiveness is the freedom of letting go.

That it was a journey of healing for my body and for my soul. It is a journey because some hurts take a lifetime to forgive and we just can’t do it on our own. We need God to help us. But the WILL to forgive is the first step.

Forgiveness is a process and it takes time, sometimes it takes years, and in some cases a lifetime. I learned that forgiveness is a creative act that takes us from prisoners of the past with hurtful memories, to strong, loving people living in the present who are free of the chains that kept us bound, and are now at peace. There is peace because all of the unresolved issues, and the hurt, and bitterness are gone which brings peace to the soul and harmony to one’s life. Forgiveness doesn’t mean forgetting the wrong that was done to us; it means no longer feeling the pain that was done.

Unforgiveness, is a chain that keeps us held bound. We don’t have to forgive others. It is not a requirement. But if we want to be free and we want to heal from the hurts of life, then it is something that we need. Normally, the other party, or parties involved don’t care if they are forgiven, especially if they haven’t asked for forgiveness, they have gone on with their lives, completely oblivious to the devastation, and the hurt still left in our heart.

That’s why forgiveness is important; it breaks those chains and frees our heart. We need it in order to grow, otherwise we become stuck. When we become stuck we no longer feel God’s grace.

Of course, It is always there, we just don’t feel it anymore. And then we begin feeling the illusion that God has abandoned us. We need to allow forgiveness to flow through us and around us; and when we are aware that we are now free from those chains that held us bound, we are free to love unconditionally and we can send that unconditional love out into the world around us.

Then, the natural flow of God’s divine love dissolves all the hurt, all the bitterness, all the pain and the sense of being wronged. Then, we can allow His grace to come to us and flow through us, to forgive through us.

There is no more of the illusion of separation, no more feelings of abandonment. Forgiveness is the greatest form of unconditional love and acceptance. It is a gift that he gives us and it is through His grace that we experience this gift.

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind
A Near Death Experience

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Jesus said
“Listen, quiet your heart and be at peace for I am always with you. If you don’t hear me talking, it’s because you are not listening. You have the courage and the strength to do all that your heart desires and all that My Father has called you to do. It has been shouted from the highest mountains and heard in the lowest valleys. Its whisper has been heard throughout all human experience. So you must trust that it is true.

Trust and believe, with all of your being that LOVE is the answer. It is Agape Love, meaning pure unconditional love that is the answer. Believe in and expect miracles, for they will happen. When you quiet your mind and spirit, answers will come.

My Father knows you. He knows that when you go into nature you will find rest. Nature is where you will become one with all that is, all that was, and all that will ever be. Know that in this place you will find your greatest peace and joy. You will never walk alone. Not ever, all those who went before you, are all around you loving you and supporting you in your walk on this earthly plane.

Open your heart and don’t be afraid. Just cast all your fears aside and accept your new life. Just be at peace. Remember this; I am in you and all around you. Turn wood and you will find me. Lift a stone, I am there. Like the sun warms your skin, I will touch you, and as the rain washes you, I will also. Without you I am nothing. With you, I am eternity.”

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind,
A Near Death Experience

When I was sitting in Heaven with God, I felt a love I had never felt before. It felt as if I was the only one He had ever created. And then I realized that no matter how huge the universe may be and how tiny I am in the grand scheme of things, I am a very important part of everything God created. Meaning, I have eternal worth because I am connected and interwoven with everything like the golden threads of a tapestry. What God taught me was every single thing He created is an extension of His love. God didn’t create us to serve Him. On the contrary, He serves us so that we can learn to serve others in love with Him.

Sharon Milliman
A Song In The Wind
A Near Death Experience

Going Home.

When I was younger, I had an almost paralyzing fear of death. My fear came from being so young and not having fully lived my life yet. It also came from not having experienced love in all of its different facets. My fear came from feeling like I had to face the great unknown, alone, at least I thought I was alone. Because I was so young, I hadn’t realized that I was never really alone.

During my NDEs, I was not afraid of dying because everything had happened so fast that I didn’t have time to be afraid. Death came flawlessly as I moved laterally, seamlessly into the Heavens. I found, through my own experience, that Heaven wasn’t a place up in the sky nor was Hell down below the earth. For me, when death came, it was nothing more than walking through a doorway into another room in my home. I also found that Heaven, was no farther away than my own backyard. As I stood in the presence of God, I learned that God is good and He keeps His word. He said He would never leave me or forsake me and just as He had promised, God had never left my side. Not for one single second. He is gracious and His love is abundant beyond words.

I was very young when I had my first near death experience and I had not fully lived my life. I was only 13 years old. I still had many more years ahead of me. It simply wasn’t my time; God still had big plans for my life. So, He sent me back, even though I really wanted to stay. It happened again in my second NDE and in my third one as well. With each NDE, God had brought me closer to himself and He had proven time and time again that there was no need to fear death. There was no pain, no suffering, no judgment, only love. It was the kind of love that there are no words to adequately describe.

Once I knew that there was something far greater than my life here on earth, I was not afraid of death anymore. I had been blessed with a glimpse of what lies beyond with all of its beauty and splendor. But for others, who have not experienced a near death experience ,there is a fear about facing what is unknown. There is a voice inside of each us that says, “ I don’t know what there is that waits for me on the other side. How do I know that there is anything at all? I don’t want to die yet, I’m not finished with my life. I haven’t loved enough yet, which is, of course, what our purpose is in life.

When it is our time to go ” home” and we have fully experienced this life with all of its love, its gifts and its wonder, then, we will be able to say “I’m not afraid to let go and move on because I have lived my journey of life and have loved to the best of my ability.”

Through my experiences, I have learned that there really is no death, for it is only the physical body that dies, the human soul lives on eternally. The human soul, is the part of us that makes us who we truly are and that is the part of us that never dies but upon physical death takes on another form and lives forever in union and in love with God.

Death is the last doorway that takes us to our eternal life and to the glorious gifts that await us for our return home.
Sharon Milliman (c) 2017

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Beauty in front of me, Beauty behind me,
Beauty Above me, Beauty below me,
Beauty all around me,
I walk in Beauty…..
In the house of long life, there I wander.
In the house of happiness, there I wander.
Beauty before me,
Beauty behind me,
Beauty above me ,
Beauty below me,
Beauty all around me,
In old age traveling, with it I wander.
On the beautiful trail I am, with it I wander.
In beauty, it is begun,
In beauty, it is finished.

As you walk your path in life, see all the beauty that surrounds you. Find the gifts that await you.
When you find them, cherish them. May you have peace in your heart, love in your soul, and joy in your spirit.

Sharon Milliman (c) 2017

Come Sit with Me for a while

Oh quiet now and rest, my beautiful little soul and be at peace, for you are on a journey of wonder and delight. Come now and rest with me on a beautiful star this glorious velvet night.

Come learn, come share, come give of you and my love and light shall pull you through.

There will be no more endless days and painful choices, so turn a deaf ear to the subtlety in the voices.

You need only have ears to hear the truth. The truth is inside of you, and you know the way.

I love you my dearest little one. Just reach out and let me hold your gentle little hand and I will help you to understand.

Oh precious little soul, come sit with me for just a while, come laugh, come sing, and share a smile,

Dear sweet child of mine, listen carefully; hear my words, for they are set upon the wind,

Let Joy and happiness enter in, and you will hear the Angels sing.

Come out of the shadows, and be a part, this is not the end, it’s just the start.

Let my love and Joy come alive inside of your heart.

Stand up and uncover the light you try so hard to hide, for it sparkles like diamonds in the velvet sky. Walk straight and tall with your head held high. For you know, you are precious in my eyes.

Let the truth conquer all. And the light of your soul will shine bright in the Heavens for all eternity. Do not be afraid for I will shelter you from the storm.

Dearest one, come and sit with me for a while. Rest your eyes and feel the out pouring of my Grace. Come and sit with me for a while. Come laugh, come sing, come share a smile. Come and rest with me on a star this glorious velvet night.

Sharon Milliman (c) 2016
From Ch 8 , A Song In The Wind, A Near Death Experience

I recommend this book to anyone who wants to keep his head high during perilous times. Sharon, in her book, captures the sufficiency of God’s love as the best weapon to combat trials. She is a near death experiencer, her poems that she penned down during some revelations are soul-lifting and heart-inspiring.
Kola Olaniyi

I encourage all to find Sharon Milliman’s book, ” A Song in the Wind’ on Amazon. com to read more of her beautiful not ONE but TWO NDE’S. You will not be disappointed as this is a very poetic and resounding personal journey into the experiences with God etc. that she encountered. A very satisfying and joyous read as well!
Jan Armstrong

If you have not read Sharon’s book ” A Song In The Wind”, you need to get the book and read it. Available on Amazon. She is a Angel on Earth…Heart and God centered in living her Life.
‎Jim Stitley‎