Tag: Hope
Words
To all of my family and to my friends who love and support me , I am truly honored and blessed by the beautiful gift of YOU. Thank you for being in my life. I love you all and I am grateful beyond words for YOU. This writing is not directed towards any of you at all but is directed towards others ( they know who they are) and after days of prayer and contemplation, I feel I am being led to speak out about what is in my heart.
Once again, I find it very disheartening to be at the receiving end of some people’s negative,angry, self righteous words being wielded at me like a razor sharp sword. When I read some of the comments that are posted on some of the YouTube videos made from some of the interviews I have done, where I have shared about my experiences, I am completely astounded. I have no words to accurately describe the pain I feel by the accusations and presumptions coming from people who do not even know me. I am appalled by the venom I see coming from adults who claim to be followers of Christ and yet, they prove by their actions and words that they are anything but what they claim to be.
These kinds of comments are not just on my videos but I see similar comments on other’s videos as well.
I can’t speak for anyone else, but I can speak for myself. What I will say is that every word I have spoken is the truth. I am not a fraud, I am not a liar. I am not demon possessed. I am not a heretic. I am not a blasphemer. I am not a theologian, my books are not theological documents, they are books about what God did in MY life. They may be my experiences but it’s God’s story and everything I do is all for His Glory!
I do not, and have never claimed to know the mind of God. I have never claimed to be an authority on God. The only authority on God, is God. All I know is what He chose to show me and tell me during my Near Death experiences and what I have been willing to learn from those experiences. I have a willingness and an openness to do God’s will by sharing my experiences in order to give hope to those in need. I do this out of love, not out of any kind of authority.
When giving an interview, or giving a talk on my experiences, I tell exactly what God did in MY life. God is God. He is capable of doing anything He chooses. If He can work miracles in my life, He is quite capable of doing the same in other’s lives as well. He comes to us all in very unique and individual ways because we are all very unique and individual people, with very unique and individual hearts. God is the reader of hearts and the healer of hearts. That is what He does best. The way He presents Himself and the way He speaks to me is going to be very different than the way He may present Himself or the way He speaks to someone else. But, both are very real and valid.
As for the comments about my tears, Yes! I do cry sometimes during certain interviews because there are times when I cannot contain the absolute love of God, the overwhelming sense of joy and the awe that I feel because of the profound miracles that I have experienced in my life. Tears are not a bad thing. Tears are simply words the soul cannot speak.
As for the comments made about my NDEs and the Bible, NO , you probably will not find a way to back up all of the experiences I have had by looking for them in the Bible, but that does not mean that I was “speaking with demons” or that as some have said , “I need to be delivered.”
Yes, God speaks to us through the words in the Bible, but that is not the only way He can speak to us. He is God for heaven’s sake. He is too big to fit into the tiny little boxes people try to put Him in. He is limitless!!! He can do anything He pleases If you look,there are many places in the Bible that talk about people having angelic visitations, people having dreams , visions , seeing spirits etc. But, one needs to truly understand in what context the words were written and how can they be applied to our lives today. The Bible should never be used as a destructive weapon against another person.
If one chooses to put God in a box, then so be it, have at it. I however, through my experiences, have learned that God cannot, nor will He ever be contained inside a tiny little box.
God is so big He can cover the whole world with His love and at the same time, He can be so small that He can curl up inside your heart. If one lets Him, He will do just that.
I will also say that unless one has walked a mile in my shoes, unless one has seen the world and the Glory of God through my eyes, unless one has crawled into the deepest chambers of my heart, it is impossible for anyone to pass any kind of accurate judgment upon me.
There were remarks made about the tears that came when I spoke about my own mother. Yes, my mother passed away five years ago. I know she is in Heaven, she is not suffering anymore. But, When we love deeply, we also mourn deeply. I still love her and I miss her in my life. Even Jesus Himself mourned the death of His friend Lazarus, He wept and mourned over Jerusalem. Mourning is very normal and natural thing to experience when someone you love passes. It’s part of being human. Even as a multiple NDER, I am still human. I know where my loved ones are and have had a beautiful glimpse of what they are experiencing and yet, I am here and they are there. Please,Don’t tell me how I am supposed to feel. I am allowed to feel. I am allowed to mourn for as long as I need to without judgment from others.
And please stop saying that I write books and do interviews or give talks to make money. I do not monetize anything ! So, No, I do not make money, in fact, I spend money to do these things. The truth is, it has never been about me, it has always been about God and what He can do in a human heart.
As NDERS we are not all knowing gurus, we are not exempt from the trials and suffering of this world. We still face hardships, loss,physical illness and we hurt when others are cruel. But, It’s what we do with it all that matters in the end. I said “ yes” to God , that is why I share what I do. I was also taught as a child, if you can’t say something kind, don’t say anything at all. Words have the power to make a soul or break one. So I ask these people, and they know who they are, before you speak or leave mean, hurtful, judgmental comments on me or anyone else, ask yourself “what would Jesus, or God, do?”
Learning From The Past
When people do not learn from the past, they are destined to repeat the same mistakes. God is the Creator of the universe and all life flows from Him. He is Love and perfect love emanates from Him. All that He created is right and good and all things are connected to God and exist in harmony with Him. When we as human beings step out of His order of doing things, when we act out of selfishness instead of love, harmony ceases to exist, and then chaos and destruction ensue throughout the world, then we are to blame, not God. God wants us to depend on Him as the ultimate source for our life and existence. Because of His great love for us, God gives every one of us the gift of free-will. God is a gentleman, He will not force, nor will He step in to stop us from making foolish choices. He leaves it up to us to either choose to follow His direction or choose to follow our worldly, selfish ways.
The opposite of love is not hate, it is selfishness and hatred is born out of selfishness. We choose. We decide and We can recreate. The horror that is happening in our world today does not need to happen. There is too much at stake. We as a human race must come together, all of us and learn from the past so as not to repeat the same horrific mistakes over and over. We need to celebrate the things we have in common and learn from each other those things that are different. We will never make it if things do not change. We are divided as a people based on ,race ,creed, political views, and most ridiculously, skin color. God created every single one of us in His image and likeness. He does not divide us, We have done that. I was raised in a way that exemplifies unity. There are many different colors in a rainbow but it is still ONE rainbow. A rainbow is a message of hope. We still have hope. I do not see color, religion, tradition as a means to separate or as means of division. I see people. I see souls. ALL beautiful and ALL one , like a rainbow. ALL people matter. We can change the way things are going, we have a choice but with every choice there are consequences; good choices bring good consequences whereas bad choices bring bad consequences. We are human beings and we all belong to one race, the human race. It’s time to heal the past by honoring each other, by forgiving each other for the horrible experiences some human beings have inflicted upon others in their selfishness thereby taking away another’s God given gift of free will. No one person is better than any other person. We are all in this together, as a people, as the human race, to fix this mess we created and are living in right here, right now. It takes Love, it takes courage, it takes forgiveness, it takes respect, it takes being humble and honoring each other. We are at a precipice. We have a choice.
We cannot live in the past, no matter what horror existed,we must take responsibility, seek forgiveness and heal.
A Song In The Wind
In response to a friend’s request here is a chapter in my up coming book A Song In The Wind , A Near Death Experience
Chapter 12
A Song in the Wind
The Enchantment
By Sharon Milliman
As the wind blows the clouds across the skies, I look to the Heavens and see the brightly flickering lights which dot the velvet blackness. I see the silver moon beams dancing around me and I feel true joyfulness with an open heart. I feel the new beginnings of love and by loves transcendent glow that surrounds me, the enchantment has begun. As night turns into day, the sky becomes a radiant blue and a rainbow shines with a promise of hope renewed and the doves fill the trees two by two. There is a pink and golden glow that consumes the trees and they sparkle like diamonds in the breeze. As the doves sing their beautiful songs, I know that, like the stars in the velvet sky and the rainbow too, I am an integral part of this timeless beauty that is before me now. This knowing is within me at every moment. For we are all one with all there is, now and forever. The angelic herald is calling us to remember to live a life in the Spirit, where the lives of all who live under the stars and the moon are called to live in love as one showing forth the fruit of the Spirit which is love, peace, joy, kindness, gentleness, generosity, patience and faithfulness for all, while His love lifts us high and fills us with His Grace.
The pink bubble transformed the way I related to the world. I was less concerned about the day to day hustle and bustle of surviving and concentrated more on the little things in God’s creation. In this state, I also discovered small miracles.
There were times when I could actually hear heavenly music, like a song in the wind. My heart would leap in my chest at the sound. There were days that I would spend hours just sitting in silence, listening, praying and remembering. I would find refuge in my back yard just listening to the chirping birds and feeling the wind against my skin. Similarly, I would spend hours staring at the grass and the flowers as well as watching the clouds as they floated by in a beautiful blue sky. This recollection became my daily prayer as I remembered heaven. I never wanted to forget what I felt and heard in God’s realm; I had never been bestowed a more beautiful gift. There were many times I would just start dancing because of the joy and the peace that I felt. I loved feeling all the sensations in my body. It was just like getting a sweet kiss from God every day. Before the lightning strike I spent much of my time indoors cleaning house and mothering my two teenage children. Life was always busy; we were constantly going and doing. I never took the time to sit and be in the moment with God. I spoke to Him during my prayers, but I didn’t speak with Him. Nor did I sit quiet and listen. I now recognize how much I had missed being so busy. I wanted to spend my remaining time recapturing what was really important in life. In other words, I needed to sit quietly and be still in order to hear His voice as I did when I had died. So, I made it a point each day to sit quietly and just be with God.
It was during these times God allowed me to see that Heaven was really no further away than my own back yard. Meaning, heaven is more a state of being, or vibration of soul, than a place. Every so often He would lift the veil to allow me another glimpse of heaven’s beauty. There were times when I would literally see the air change. I knew it was heaven because the air was so clean, clear, and fragrant. I would see the colors of the flowers and trees become much more vibrant. Unfortunately, these experiences only lasted for one sacred moment before the world returned back to “normal”. I felt such awe and joy despite the momentary nature of my experiences. There were many times I would shake myself wondering if all of this was real. Then I would hear heavenly music come from out of nowhere. The “song in the wind” was played for me again and so I knew that it was all true.
During my near death experience I learned that God is all about establishing a loving relationship with all of us. To my surprise, he doesn’t care what religion a person selects. The question He consistently asks is “do you want a relationship with me?” For so long I had been deprived of a deep loving relationship with God. Like many people, my life had been too busy before to pay attention to Him beyond going to church and praying. But now my entire life had changed by taking the time to listen to His whispering voice stirring my soul.
There were many times I actively sought to hear God’s whispering voice. Let me share a number of examples throughout the rest of this chapter.
One morning, I woke up early to watch the sun rise. Just as the sun was coming up over the horizon, I noticed all the neighborhood sounds seemed to fade away. Even the sound of the water from the patio fountain was muted. As I looked around confused, I started to hear a drum beat and chanting. Although, I didn’t understand the language the chanting sounded powerful in rhythm with the drum. I looked around but was surprised to find that there was no one out and about in the neighborhood. Because of the clear fidelity of the chanting, I knew that it wasn’t a car radio or television I was hearing. The voices faded back out after a few moments as the normal neighborhood sounds faded back in. Amazingly, the chanting happened several more times during that summer. I can only guess that I was hearing the echoes of Native people who lived in the area long ago. Just as time did not seem to exist during my near death experience, perhaps I was tuned into the past as part of a greater unity of a timeless experience here on earth.
I noticed strange events happen in the physical world during this time. For instance, I saw rainbows in the night sky. Logic told me this wasn’t possible, but I cannot dispute my own eyes. I had just learned that with God all things were possible. Perhaps the rainbow symbolized that there is hope even in our darkest moments.
I also witnessed unusual behavior from animals. During an unusually warm November night, I stepped onto the patio and saw the sun shining on the two oak trees in the yard next door. This struck me as odd since it had been spitting cold, damp rain all day. The trees were beautifully lit in an unearthly golden color against a bluish purple sky. Then I noticed that a pair of doves had flown into the trees next to each other. Almost immediately another pair of doves arrived, then another, and another, until both the trees were loaded with pairs of doves. As the doves sat there in the golden trees they appeared to be a light shade of pink in the sky. Then the wind gently moved the branches. As the branches moved, the entire scene sparkled like diamonds in the light. The entire sequence of events was breathtaking and magnificent.
As this sight was unfolding the entire neighborhood sounds seemed to fade away; all I could hear was the sound of hundreds of doves’ “cooing”. The cooing faded after a few minutes as the neighborhood sounds faded back in. The doves began to fly away pair by pair until all were gone. Then the light faded away too and it became very dark and very cold outside again within minutes. There was no way it was mating season. Interestingly, a pair of doves is believed to be a symbol of love and fidelity. Perhaps God was showing me that He will always be faithful in His love, even during the storms of my life when I am the most worried and afraid. Doves are such beautiful, graceful birds. I love to hear their mourning songs and to listen to the whisper of their wings as the fly. Doves have always had great symbolism to me. This was another one of those “special” moments where God moved the veil from a realm of infinite possibilities.
Jesus often used birds as an illustration of why we should not worry about what we are to eat or how we are to provide for our needs. He said, “Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” (Matthew 6:26, New International Version). Birds are such beautiful, fragile creatures, they were often held up by Jesus, as being objects of concern for the loving care of God. If God takes care of the birds, God will most certainly take care of us. When we see the birds, and how God cares for them, we know we can trust God. There is no need to worry or be afraid.
God created all things. God created us in His image. We are children of God and God takes care of His own, no matter how small or fragile they might be. We can rest secure in His faithful love knowing that He provides for us, just as He provides for the birds of the air. He most certainly will take care of us. When we see the birds, and how God cares for them, we know we can trust God. There is no need to worry or be afraid.
The Gift of a Little Wren
One morning, after my NDE,I was sitting on my front porch watching the sunrise and just spending time in God’s presence, praying that He would still hear me and talking with Him like I did when I was I Heaven. He had heard me and He had sent me a gift. This gift was a reminder that He was still there. God is always there. He spoke to me, I audibly heard Him say “I am your shelter and your strength during the storms of your life. I am the light that guides you and I love you beyond what your eyes have seen and your ears have heard. When you can’t take another step, it is then that I will carry you and when all your hope is gone; I will give you a peace beyond your understanding and hold you close to my Heart. And when you are strong again I will set you upon your own feet and forever walk beside you, loving you as you walk into eternity.” Just as He said this, a little wren with a broken wing came to see me as she sat there on the front porch, she said to me “I have come from the Great Woods with the dew of yesterdays’ morning to bring you a gift; it is something you are losing. You will soon see this wonderful gift I have for you but first, can you help me dear one, I am in so much pain, can’t you see?” So as I went to her, I gently scooped her up as tenderly as I could and held her close to my heart. I asked the Lord and all the angels too to come and bless this tiny one, to mend her broken wing, to take her pain and allow her to fly again. I prayed and prayed. I prayed as I held her close that she would be free to fly, flying high to the great woods and to drink of the morning’s rain. As I prayed these words she laid her head upon my breast and her heartbeat slowed to the rhythm of mine.But, after a time, the little wren lifted her head and said ” Dear one, I thank you for your love and prayers, but my pain is so severe so I will lay my head down right here and shut my eyes ,it’s time for me to sleep. But, before I do, the gift I bring to you is the gift of faith. Faith, that you too can spread your broken wings. Faith that they will heal and you too will have the strength to fly free. And faith in believing that the beauty of your spirit will lift you high.” She then spread her fragile little wings one last time and laid her head down and closed her eyes. This little angel brought a message and gave a priceless gift. As I looked to the sky I saw her spirit rise and I know that she is free, back to the Great Woods she flies. Since my experience, I have learned that no heartfelt prayer goes unanswered and God is always there, always.
A Song in the Wind 